A difficult decision.

by Tanya on January 24, 2012

Amelia in one of her happy places.

This is so difficult! After a week of stuffing Amelia with five different medications and force feeding her every 2-4 hours there is no improvement, instead she’s worsened. She’s so weak, still getting up to go to litter box but not making it out of it. She pees herself and then collapses for rest. I grabbed her out and gave her a warm sponge bath this morning.

This decision is killing me, I’ve chosen to discontinue the nasty med routine and let her go, though part of me feels like I’m taking away the only thing that might be extending her life. But for what? She doesn’t seem to be in any pain, so I make a point to spend quality time with her, setting her up next to me on the couch in cozy blankets with her bowl of water in front of her. This seems to comfort her, she lays her head in it and periodically licks some up like one of those bobbing bird things. Last night Murdock came to lay with us in bed, not with her, with me, but this put him right next to her and he purred loudly. I think she liked this, she tried to nudge a bit closer. It was sweet. The waiting game is just as hard, when will she pass? Today, tomorrow? Soon…. The thought of finding her, I so hope it happens with me nearby, as hard as that will be.

For now, I’ll sit here and pet her bony body and talk to her and wipe her chin when she’s had enough water and love her.

Please share the LOVE:-)!

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Andi January 24, 2012 at 7:03 pm

OH I’m so sorry! That’s so difficult :( Will be thinking about you.
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Tanya January 27, 2012 at 4:53 pm

Thanks Andi! We ended up putting her to peace on Wednesday. She’ll always be missed and hold a place in our hearts. I feel better knowing she’s at peace now.
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Fadra January 28, 2012 at 11:41 pm

Aww, I’m so sorry. I’ve had to make the decision with my dogs and it is the hardest thing I’ve ever done. But yes, there is some comfort in knowing they are at peace and pain free.
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